Story Behind How He Loves
Song writer: John Mark McMillan
So Heaven meets earth
like a sloppy wet kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way… he loves us
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way… he loves us
The heart of a song is more
than the story of its inspiration or inception; it’s also the story it becomes
in the listener and the singer. “How He Loves” became the anthem of a youth
movement as John Mark McMillan recounted the story of his friend Stephen at a
conference with 70,000 young people. John Mark told how one fateful night his
friend prayed something on the order of: “I would give my life, for these
people that I love.” And that very night, Stephen’s earthly existence was ended
in a terrible accident. McMillan says, “I was in complete shock of my friend
dying. And I sat down and had a conversation with God about it. And that song,
basically, popped out.” For those who heard John Mark tell the story and the
half million who viewed it on YouTube the legend emerged: “Stephen offered his
life. God took him up on it. And out of his sacrifice, a youth movement of
others like him—willing to lay
down their lives—would be birthed and this song would be the fuse that would
ignite it.” And so although the story had some truth, the songs real heart and
meaning were partially hijacked.
Bending the Truth
“I think, what happens is
that a story travels—and it’s an exciting story. One thing I really regret is
that I didn’t put more thought into what I said. I really didn’t know it was
going to be broadcast to the
universe. None of it was untrue in any way shape or form. But I wish I’d been
clearer about things so that people better understood what I was saying. It’s
like [the game of] telephone, it’s a legend that gets crazier every time someone
tells it. To the point where, someone said Stephen was raised from the dead and
came back and gave me that thought [song]. But I was like, ‘that’s a great
story, but it’s not true at all.’”
The song became about
Stephen and a movement when it was really about God. “What the song means to
me—this is why it comes from the death of my friend—is we have these places
that we would like for things to sort of exist, this sort of plane, where we
have the love of God and God loves. We have church; I have every hair in place,
the perfect suit and you dress up… But God, isn’t confined to the hour or the
rituals, you know. The Bible says ‘the whole earth is full of his glory (Is
6:3).’ God exists and you can find him in every situation. I think that’s the
point: that I found God in the worst situation. My friend, a young healthy guy
died in a very, very terrible car accident, and God was able to show me who he
is even in that situation.
The “Who” of God
“In church we like to
pretend everything’s okay a lot. And most of the songs we sing in church are
sort of the happy songs, but only 15 to 20 percent of the songs found in the
Bible are happy. The other 75 to 80 percent are the angry ones, the sad ones,
or the brutally honest ones. For me, the song was not about ‘how much’ he loves
us: ‘he loves us so much that he died.’ It was ‘how’ he loves us, ‘the way’ he
loves us. He loves us in ways that are not like we think; they’re better than
we think. The idea that Jesus is acquainted with our situation: we don’t serve
a God who doesn’t understand our suffering and our pain or joy. He’s not this
sort of mechanical brain in the sky who does things for us when we pray. He’s
actually a person, and he has experienced life on earth.
“I was super angry. And I
didn’t know who to be angry at. And I came to realize if you’re angry at nobody
then you’re really angry with God, because he’s the only one who can change the
situation. So, I sat down. I didn’t have a bad attitude. I wasn’t shaking my
fist at God. I was just, I guess, hurt. I was really young. I’d never
experienced anything like that before. I thought Stephen was the only one who
understood me in certain ways, probably the only guy at the time I could be
completely honest about any area of my life. And he was the same with me; there
was no sort of pretension. When he was gone, it was, ‘I have nobody to call,
nobody to talk to. How am I going to process and deal with life without him
there?’ And so I sat down and that song just sort of materialized. And as I was
singing the song I saw the story of my friend in the song. In my heart I was
questioning the love of God, really. I was trying to have a conversation with
God, but I think he was speaking to me in the song even though it’s written
from my perspective.”
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